Boredom… or…. Inconsistency ??

Heh…. I don’t know which one of them. Writing a diary doesn’t seem such a boring thing to do. Whereas, it could bring an ease to a tired heart and head sometimes. Or you could say, hey that means you are a happy person… you write a diary only when you feel tired and stress…. there haven’t been any writing for so long means that you have been a happy person… ha ha ha…. glad if you think that way

Maybe I should agree with inconsistent. I do have a problem of being consistent at most cases in my life ha ha. Like for example….. I had a really good determination to wake up earlier every morning in order to help my parents with their dawn chores. I started to do it from the next day onward until……. well it only lasted for about a week….. And there are other examples too. Not to mention, this writing-a-diary actitivity. I am quite tired to say that I”ll be back on this….. well let’s just put it this way. I wont wait for my self to come back on this ha ha. But I will try my best to write anything that is useful. Good luck to ME on that!

Talking about inconsistency…. how many of you who haven’t been there or done that? I have seen most of the people I have met or known have been there done that…. he he. I think it must be one of human nature it seems. To not being able to guarantee that they would do whatever they have said or determined to do. I can absolutely accept and understand whatever might be the reason….. wait… I guess (there goes my inconsistency :p). But there is ONE thing that I might not be able to accept or understand….. if one being inconsistent in “love” matter.

What do you think about it?? Should one be understood if they were being inconsistent in “love”, or to be brief, for instance, one can change his/her course of affection to another person or to just stop loving someone, whereas they have said (often it is said to be confessed truthfully) or evenmore, promised to love each other forever. Owwhh this matter seems so profound to discuss. However, this thing does happen a lot for I have seen many happened with my own eyes. I, myself, when I was younger and so called “dumb” in a matter of love, once done it. I loved someone, then I just stopped loving him. Felt confused yet wondered why such thing could happen to me. To have loved someone and then the flame just got turned off by itself, with no reason. Then again, I should have asked to my self. Was it of boredom for being with the same person everyday, or have I being inconsistent??

I grew older and ofcourse wiser. In my opinion, in a matter of love, one should not be inconsistent. Because love means to accept other just the way he/she is, and trying to change ourself to the best for both What about boredom? It comes always, and will come again and again. But there’s always a way to overcome that. Even better…. prevent it to happen

Determination is in everyone’s heart. I have it, you have it. It can come suddenly and it can also go off suddenly. By practice, we can maintain it to flame in our heart and create a dream comes true. “I can do it!” -”I have to do it!” By saying it everytime the boredom or the inconsistency started crawling in our heart and mind, I am sure we will succeed

S.M.I.L.E !!

“Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love.” 1 John 4:8

Since the first day I arrived here, I have noticed this one thing, which kind of frightened me a little, is that the people here are so individual. That I really feel when I needed to ask someone about direction. They just either pretend that they disn’t listen or just shaking their head without even bother to stop walking. Some would stop walking, but then answering right after their investigating look. So, it’s quite frightening for a new girl in town such me. I’m not saying Singaporean are all like that though, because I don’t want to generalize them. But the fact of the unfriendlyness was quite bothering me.

I saw this cooking show played at Discovery Channel Travel and Living two days ago. In short, it was about a woman who is making this large handmade-sign says “FREE HUGS”. I didn’t know what it meant before, I thought it was for the Sunday School thing. But it wasn’t. See, this woman was actually go down the road carrying that sign and she would just hug anybody who need a hug (because she’s a “free hugs” girl). The point is, all people need to be loved, because they need love. And some people just couldn’t get the love they need.

Here aswell, where the people are mostly working hours a day, must have quite a stressed day. They need love and at least a soothing smile.

I learned that even the smallest good deeds and our blessings to other really count. And when we can bless other, you’ll get that bursting feeling of joy. For example yesterday, when I bought a shoe, I noticed that the SPG was a middle-aged lady. I wanted to buy a nice shoe and a fitted size. So, I asked the auntie to take me some shoes with the size I asked. But I felt sorry for her though. So, when I finished choosing and paid, I told the auntie thank you very much and have a good day, she said thank you in return twice and smiled. And a funny thing when I said the same thing with the cashier she was like “Huh? OH yes thank you so much.”
Probably it didn’t happen often to them to be thanked and blessed. Or maybe they could think I’m weird. But the bottom line is, I have made them happy and Blessed. And that makes me feel great =)

Just like when Jesus fed 5000 men, He got the fish and bread from a little boy who wanted to help. He gave so little, yet God multiply it. See how a miracle was made from such a small contribution?
We can also do at least a little blessing to others and gain much more.

God blesd you all!!

Thou Shall Not Be Greed

This morning I realized that my purposes here must be refined. I had thoughts before that I have to get a good job with a high salary, so I can safe more money. The money is my number one orientation. But I wasn’t thinking about contentment, that I should just be grateful for what I gain for myself. God reminded me this morning that I didn’t bring anything into this world, so I can take nothing out of it. Think of the job that we do here as a repayment of our debts to God, for He has paid for our life a very high price, His life. So, the money we receive monthly from the company is actually not belongs to us. Indeed God give us the responsibility to use well, but not to spoil it, for it is not truly ours. We should give back what is meant to be His. And He will give us what is worth for us. For He has said, “Godliness with contentment is great gain.” (1 Tim 6:6). See, He will give us the richness that we deserve, when we give our wealth to God firsthand. Amen

“But godliness with contentment is great gain.
For we brought nothing into the world, and we can take nothing out of it.
But if we have food and clothing, we will be content with that.
People who want to get rich fall into temptation and a trap and into many foolish and harmful desires that plunge men into ruin and destruction.
For the love of money is a root of all kinds of evil. Some people, eager for money, have wandered from the faith and pierced themselves with many grief.”
1 Tim 6:6-10

Welcome Singapore

Again… I forgot my password… x”/

It’s the fourth day in Singapore. Haven’t had any news on the jobs I’ve applied. But I’ve decided to keep moving on with faith. =”D

Actually, there is an interesting story. At the airport before leaving to Sing, surprisingly I met my old friend. Can’t say she’s old though… or just too long ago we haven’t met. I call her an old friend because I she was my colleague 2 years ago. Apparently, she was leaving to Sing for a weekend holiday. And it was such a lovely coincidence that we were on the same plane. She said she will be meeting her old friend who has been working here for 4 years. I wasn’t quite interested on her friend until my friend said that she’s working as a PR in one school. I told her hey would you mind asking her if there is any filling as a teacher or something. She said ok. Then on Sunday morning, my friend informed me that I should call her friend that day because there is a job offer.

Well I wasn’t as exited as to know later that she, my friend’s friend, is going to resign next month, and she needs a replacement. She needs an Indonesian who has good experience on teaching!! That is a beautiful coincidence I almost cried hearing it =”D It was hard to believe but I should still be calm and not over hoping. Because this could be God’s choice, but this could also be a test for me, whether I can accept it or not if this is not the job for me =”( Oh Lord, I am hoping so much of You… for I don’t know where else I could turn to and ask. All I want is a proper job where I can get a working pass. It’s not easy to get a working pass here, know…… but since this company is directly under the Ministry of Man Power (the legal institution which gives working pass to foreigners), she said it only takes a week to get a working pass if I got the job. How perfect it would be!! And I will say to the whole world (by facebook most probably) that God has answered my prayer and He shall answer yours too if you would just pray hard enough and love Him enough =”)

Actually, what makes me happy is… I am growing here… in faith and knowledge of God. Being in a place I don’t know, as a stranger, not knowing much of what are here, and the dialects are sometimes hard to understand, have made me counting on God a lot in almost everything. Sometimes I don’t aware that I am in Singapore, not in Bandung. And when I realize that, I almost cry for I really miss that city and my family. But I gotta strive, I know that. And I know God is with me. In my happy times and in the most difficult times. I learn how to be grateful more than I have ever felt before. I am beginning to see things differently. I feel alone but on the other hand I feel the presence of God more real. Here, I could almost count on nobody. Except for (Thank God for them) my brother, his friend Andrew and his mom, and the maid Yanti =”) I feel so much blessed here.

Oh I even made a new friend at church. Auntie Jeannie her name. She’s Singaporean, 59 yrs old. Very nice, sweet, and funny old lady =”) I am sure God sent her for me. Because on the first day I came to church I didn’t know what to do and which room to enter for the mass. But she looked just right to be asked for help and yes indeed. She even took me around the supermarket across the church, NTUC. She taught me how to pick the best food, the ones with the promotion tag (yellow ones). Oh it was just fun. If it wasn’t because of the time, I would just stick around with her and talk. Next Saturday I hope to see her again =”) Maybe she’ll introduce me to her big family along with her grandchildren.

It’s not all that scary after all. Being in a stranger country. Thanks the Lord He’s with me =”)

Philippians 4:6-7 (Contemporary English Version)

⁶Don’t worry about anything, but pray about everything. With thankful hearts offer up your prayers and requests to God. ⁷Then, because you belong to Christ Jesus, God will bless you with peace that no one can completely understand. And this peace will control the way you think and feel.

Di saat badai datang, hanya Tuhan yang dapat menenangkan hatiku dan jiwaku…. “Tenanglah diriku dalam naungan sayapMu. Menembus awan kelabu, pandang kemuliaanMu. Selalu kurindu lekat dalam hatiMu. Mengikuti rencanaMu, Yesus Tuhan Rajaku.” =”)

Malam ini bisa dibilang rada fenomenal. Hujan mulai turun tadi kira2 pukul 21.20, aku lagi nonton tv memutuskan mau tidur aja, karna paling enak memang hujan malem2 bobo ^^. Tapi ga disangka, hujan makin lebat, dan yang gak biasa, petir muncul terus-menerus. Ibarat nih, seperti pas malem taun baru, di langit gelap banyak kembang api. Tapi malam ini cahaya kelap kelipnya bukan dari kembang api melainkan dari petir. Aku cek FB wah lumayan heboh juga kota Bandung. Di radio pun sama. Ada apakah gerangan? FB heboh dengan pendapat orang2 : seperti akhir jaman, syereem gw takut banget, gw masih mau hidup, koq listrik mati ujan gede gelap gulita lagi serreemm, de el el. Termasuk aku juga heheh… =”p

Lantas aku langsung terduduk dan mulai berdoa. Mulai dari mengakui ketakutan, kemudian muncul rasa syukur karna aku tiba2 mikirin orang2 yg lagi di jalanan ato orang2 yang gak punya rumah ato atap rumah yang kuat. Aku mulai doain mereka. Then came up the urge untuk doa bahasa roh… oh I haven’t done that for so long. But then I started to pray. Ternyata Roh Kudus masih meresponku =”) Thanks Lord aku langsung merasa tenang, karna aku sayup2 mendengar Tuhan berkata “Semuanya akan segera tenang kembali.” Aku jd inget kisah waktu murid2 Tuhan Yesus menghadapi badai tea, Tuhan bilang tenanglah… pointnya ada di TRUST. Dan aku belajar percaya sama Tuhan =”)

Syukur pada ALLAH, aku juga jadi tiba2 sadar bahwa hei hujan badai dan petir malam ini tuh bukan buat nakut2in koq. Tapi coba pikir, hujan ini sangat diperlukan ama petani2. Dan lagi, coba kalo ujan kaya gini siang2, lebih banyak orang yang merasa rugi. Tapi Tuhan mah pikirannya lebih luas. Dan INGET, Tuhan itu ga pernah salah.

Sekarang pukul 10.34. Hujan udah reda dan ga ada petir lagi. Pikiran manusia memang kadang dangkal. Kita memang kerap lebih mudah untuk berpikir/melihat secara negatif. Pikiran Allah tidak terselami, sukar jika kita gak merubah pola pikir. Kadang yang menurut manusia itu jelek ternyata di mata Tuhan justru yang terbaik. Pokonya inget aja TUHAN MAH GA PERNAH SALAH.

Peace and God bless you!! (^^,)

First Love

Just watched Legion…..BAGUS =”) memang inti dari hidup ini adalah kasih Mula-mula… yang terpenting bukan cuma melakukan kehendakNYA, tapi bisa memberikan apa yang diperlukan-Nya… Tuhan perlukan kasih kita pada-Nya. God needs our love. Sudahkah kita mengasihiNya sepenuh hati? Jika YA, maka yakinlah pengharapan itu akan terus ada dan pengharapan itu gak pernah mengecewakan – Roma 5:5-11

JBU all!! G’nite

Rumput Saya Lebih Indah Dari Rumput Tetangga

Ternyata Rumput saya lebih indah dari tetangga !!

Loh bukannya Rumput tetangga selalu lebih indah ??

Justru itulah saya membuat bbrp observasi yg diambil dari kejadian2 yg paling sering dialami anak manusia dari jaman dulu ampe sekarang.

Yukk sejenak kita introspeksi diri ..sebenarnya rumput siapa sih yang lebih indah ???

•‘Wahh Kalau saja Istri saya seperti tetangga saya pasti pernikahan saya luar biasa, dia sangat cantik, luwes, dan sexy.. sangat kebalikan dengan istri saya..

Bener nih ?? padahal kalo dipikir2 belum tentu pernikahannya jadi luar biasa.. why ?? Loh andakan hanya sepintas mengenal istri tetangga ..mungkin dia memang cantik plus sexy, dan selalu tersenyum tapi apa bisa dia tampil seperti itu ketika anda sedang down?

Beda dong dengan istri anda..lihatlah dia begitu setia dan selalu ada, ketika anda dalam keadaan apapun. Terbuktikan istri anda still the best !

•‘Asikk nehh punya husband Guanteng kaya actor… macho man !!

Yuuk.. ganteng sih ganteng… kalo suka nyeleweng gimana? Atau over narsiss ?

Wekkk..nanti dulu la yaa.. Mending suami sendiri, walupun ga seganteng actor, tapi bisa nafkahin keluarga, sayang ama keluarga, setia, and takut ama Tuhan.

Masalah jelek kan bisa dipoles sana sini.. sekarang udah banyak koq tempat memperganteng diri. Terbuktikan suami anda still the best !

•Rumah tetangga koq kerennn abis, renovasi melulu…

Iri hate ya? Jangan dong.. jgn kaget ya kalau tiba2 tetangga ada di TV bersama pasukan KPK.

Makanya rumah ditata rapih dong.. dicat tiap taun..bikin penghijauan.

Terus yg ga kepake dibuangin.. jadi bisa bikin 1 kamar lagi kan !

•Enakk sekali gaji lo lebih gede dari gue !!

Iddihh ..ga tau ya.. dikasih gaji gede tuhh dituntut lebih banyak ! pulang lebih malem ! kerjaan kaya kereta api … bunyinya : Gaaaa abizz abizz… Gaaaa abizz abizz.. Gaaaa abizz abizz..

Mending gaji sepantasnya sajalah dengan apa yg bisa kita lakukan… jadi kalo mau libur ya bisa, kalo mau beli baju baru ya bisa.. tapi ingat jangan yg mahal-mahal ya !!

•Ehhhh.. Keluar negeri melulu nih tetangga, koq gue paling jauh ke Puncak sihh !!

Aihh..aihh .. Keluar negeri tapi koq terus mikirin mo beli oleh-oleh buat si’anu si’uno si’ini… wahh cape dee…

Mending gue ke Puncakk nikmatin udara segarr..bisa wahaha..wahihi.. terus pulang dapet oleh2 dari tetangga yg abis keluar negeri.. duh asiknya, sesuai dengan prinsip “lebih baik dibeliin daripada ngebeliin”

•Liattt ..tuuu.. si tetangga lagi lagi pergi makan di restaurant …

O..oww.. coba itung juga berapa kali juga tetangga anda lagi lagi ke rumah sakit !! kolestrol, stroke, vertigo, heart attack, dll

Mending beli buku masak .. praktek sendiri.. makan enak, sehat, plus dapet ilmu.. Syukur2 bisa buka resto kedepannya !!

•Lu pake BB ya…. Sambil ngumpetin flexinya..

Nahh yg satu ini …mikir mikir dulu dee…

Karena 1. BB = Biaya Bertambah

2. BB = Bikin Burem, abis ngeliatin layar melulu sih !

3. BB = Buat Berselingkuh, hayuu ngakuuu !!

4. BB = Buang Buang waktu, jam rasanya koq cepat berlalu, chating mulu sehh!

5. BB = Berbahaya Berkendaraan.. sambil nyetir bisa sambil ngetikk..ckckckc

6. BB = Bikin Berat , kemana-mana kudu bawa charger.

Dll..

Oh iya jadi ingett.. “BB membuat yg jauh menjadi dekat, dan yg dekat menjadi jauh !! benerrr !!

Inti dari tulisan ini sebenarnya sederhana, yaitu : Marilah kita bersyukur..mensyukuri atas apa yang kita punya saat ini.

Tidak perlu kehidupan saudara dipaksakan untuk seperti tetangga, teman, atau relasi anda, karena apa yang baik buat mereka belum tentu baik buat anda, dan sebaliknya apa yang baik buat anda belum tentu baik buat mereka.

Sekarang bisa dong dengan bangga menyatakan : “Ternyata Rumput saya lebih indah dari tetangga !!

Prinsip dasarnya :

‘Ucaplah syukur senantiasa atas segala sesuatu, itulah kebahagiaan sejati !’ (Ef5:20-21)

- Ini adalah oret-oretan dari seseorang yg saya kenal, Ci Kim Lauw-
Thanks ya, Ci, pencerahannya =”D God bless !!

TEKUN TEKUN !!!

“dan ketekunan menimbulkan tahan uji dan tahan uji menimbulkan pengharapan. Dan pengharapan tidak mengecewakan, karena kasih Allah telah dicurahkan di dalam hati kita oleh Roh Kudus yang telah dikaruniakan kepada kita.” (Roma 5:4-5).

New Year, New Page

Can’t believe I’m back to my diary. I was actually almost forgot about this site. I WAS forgot the password though, and now wordpress give me a really complicated password B-/

Well, why I’m back to diary because I have a feeling that this year is going to be an interesting year. It has never came through my mind that I will work outside Indonesia (for true). Dream about it, yes. But have I ever had the guts to make the first step? NO. But by the urge from my boyfriend I finally had it and next month I’m moving to Singapore =”D

What it will be like?? I’m not sure. Although job is not settled yet, but I already have a place to stay. My brother’s friend can recommend me to work in his place, but bro said that I shouldn’t take it just for the sake of job, it’s not worth it if I don’t try to pursue and get the job I really want. Thanks bro =”)

So, I’ve applied at many firms especially schools. I still wanna be a teacher. Just hope God would grant my wish =”) Because I’ve also sent an application to The Ministry of Education in Singapore, so that I can get a teaching training at the NIE (National Institute of Education), IF that I passed the Entrance Test…. haahhhh will I make it? Will I make it? Only time will tell… and may God bless me =”)

Carpe Diem

Live the life today as if there is no tomorrow….. no regret, no tears, no enviousness, no anger…. just peace, smile, and gratefulness

Carpe diem quam minimum credula postero ~ seize the day and place no trust in tomorrow